There have always been challenges to being a healer. To understand different layers of reality and to be able to access multiple dimensions is a gift. To assist others in healing and to do work that very few around the globe can do is a gift. Yet, being a healer in the world you are going to find that a majority of the world is not going to validate your gifts. Then you have to live with that everyday. As a child I could see and feel things most people could not. I grew more estranged as I grew older. I confided in the land, animals and running free. As a runner for 6 years I could exist out of my body. Not touch ground with Earth. Not touch ground with life. Today I wanted to post about ridding myself of all of my material possessions and committing myself to doing work only in the Spirit. I would probably be laughed at and called crazy by the majority of people in this world. If you are Christian then this is what many Saints and Jesus did. I am at this place. I feel no connection to Earthy life. I feel dead when I am engaged as a human in this time on Earth. When my gifts get swept aside like dirt on a doormat. Then I cry, I cry deeply. I cry from deeply within my being.
Being a healer and being a womyn have their challenges. Think of the Salem Witch Trials or recent news stories of women getting killed because they want to live spiritual lives and do healing work. Women are forever under the microscope of patriarchy. They must subscribe to it or it is death. Attend the Sunday mass, bow down in your temple or do prostrations at your mosque. Metaphorically a lot of us who are healers live this way. We have to mold our magic and power to fit society, not the other way around. This is very tiring to do so. The power of a women can be found in her ability to do amazing healing work. She can walk on the land and understand everything that is there - the animals, plants, trees and energy that emits ever so lovingly from Mother Earth. Yet, she turns and faces the physical world and is faced with irrational, dominating and controlling male energy. As healers we also do not do ourselves justice by incarnating into violent homes or having a series of bad lovers. We are always thinking we can heal something or someone. This does not do us justice. We are not responsible to heal everyone. In fact, most of us are wounded healers and we must heal ourselves. We must love and care for ourselves. We must maintain our space, our light and our gifts. If we do not the world will metaphorically lynch us.
Violence is directed at all of us daily. I am a non-violent person and I am committed to living a non-violent way of life. Today I experienced emotional and spiritual violence. This is why I was wrote this post about the Challenges of Being a Healer. As a healer I feel much more than most people when violence is directed at me. I can not help this. My sensitivities assist me in healing work. I do not need to be locked away in a padded cell but I do need to validated by the people in my immediate environment. That's not the case. I will be leaving this environment that invalidates my gifts and will create a new space.
There, I have said it all. I am drained and hurt but I am lifted by the opportunity to be able to write about this and post in on my blog. I am grateful for the readers, healers, feminists, wounded healers, sages, saints, angels and other strong woman who will read this post. We don't walk alone here anymore. But often on this dark physical plane it can feel like that. So thank you.
I have come out of the healer closet. I am freeing up my shackles on this Earth plane. I hope to be free of all my shackles before I leave this Earthy plane.
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5 voices speak:
what you write touches me deeply as it reflects so much of how I feel as well.
I too can feel dead when I'm swimming through the mundane, human world. I like to hide away from people, because I bring many people out of their comfort zone just by being me. Sometimes when I'm full of rage caused by all of the social injustice I like it, but most of the time it's very draining. When I am out under the moon with my dog, or in my "cave" writing I feel like I can be all of me, which feels so good.
One thing I have learned as a healer, and it's a hard lesson I've repeated over and over, is that I must choose wisely who I heal. I learned this summer especially when working with late stage alzheimers patients that I can become very ill if I empathicaly connect with the wrong person. Those people were kept alive long after their time and connecting with them was pulling me towards them, and that was scary.
Our souls remember "home" and weep deeply for being separate. I am consoled at the knowledge that we do not wander alone. We are so incredibly powerful we cannnot comprehend it, but this story I heard shed some light.
Recently a Palestinian woman who had lost her family and home was interviewed. When asked, "How do you go on living when all of your family was killed and everything you have was taken from you?"
She replied, "I am a woman. When there is no hope, I give birth to hope."
Thank you for posting your response! Yes, we do have to choose wisely who we help heal and when we are done helping them heal too.
Our souls do remember home and do long for it. I do long for it everyday. I have actually written many poems about longing for home. I know one of our tasks as humans during this time on Earth is to bring home here. Which can be damn challenging at times. Home meaning love, truth and light in all of the darkness that surrounds us.
I like how that woman replied, it is very very true!
You said it we can't heal everyone and everything. As women we are naturally nurturers. Sometimes that natural feeling of wanting to help, heal, and nurture others will cause us to neglect ourselves. We must not ever forget about self. Like you said a lot of times we need to heal ourselves.
Thanks so much for writing this. So often in my life I have abused and neglected myself because I needed to shoulder responsibility for others or was too overwhelmed by the crushing and sick energies in my immediate enviroment/s. As healers we absorb a lot more than other people. This can be totally overwhelming. I'm still learning how to heal myself, and it's not easy, but I know we are more to others and to the reconnection and healing of the world if we have a safe place and a home within ourselves.
It is women's job at this time on the planet to show a different way, bring forth hope where there is none (like the woman quoted said) and to heal,heal,heal. It's not an easy path to travel. We have to remember to keep calling on Divine guidance, otherwise it becomes almost impossible.
Keep us updated on your journey; finding a place to be truly valued.
xx
Thank you for your replies Glennisha and Ellen!
@ Ellen - it is really not an easy job at this time on the Earth. Because we can choose to redefine what female roles are we must deal with old ways, old thought patterns, old systems while bringing in a new way. This is by no means an easy task. But as warrior women we can do this. To be directly connected with the Divine at all times is very important. If we lose our connection it can literally feel like death. At least for me it has. I know when I am connected to source I can do the work and truly bring change to my life and the world.
Peace to you!
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